Freedom Comes through SURRENDERING

My friend, Kristi, just turned 20 on sunday. I got to take her to church on her birthday. We decided to take a picture of us with our cute headbands :o) We had fun celebrating the night before - going to the oh-so-great Longview Mall (in actuality, its kind of scary) and starbucks. She has been a great blessing and fun suite mate.

This year, I have had the joy of getting to know a freshman who is now working on her private certificate. Its been fun helping her with the oral questions and seeing her improve as well as gain confidence with flight. As we grow closer, we relate how similar we are with our flight experiences and struggles. She is an amazing woman and sweet friend, as well as one of the letu woman bball players! crazy how she can manage with flight....

On sunday, since texas' weather has now transitioned from cold and overcast weather to sunny and warm weather - meredith and I decided to do some homework out by the "lake" (pond) on letu's campus. However, after trying to focus on reading material for about an hour, and being entertained by some ducks, we headed over to watch a couple of minutes of the woman's softball team - who have been winning most of their matches!

Now for the more serious yet exciting update on me: Last Friday, with God's help and lots of prayers, I finally surrendered my plan of becoming a professional pilot to God and am trusting that He has a bigger plan for my life than what I had originally imagined. For a long time, I had been hoping that God would first show me what He had in mind before I chose to stop flying. However, my heart was convicted that I needed to first surrender and give up this burden before God would reveal to me the next step. After talking to a professor who had been praying for me about flight, the professor helped me sign the drop form, and I officially turned it in on Monday. Trust me, this last weekend was probably the most free that I have felt since childhood. I am so thankful that God gave me the opportunity to pursue flight for a short time and actually become a pilot, but I can see where I was doing it for the wrong reasons - and it had left me burnt out to where I was dreading each flight. God gave me complete peace about my decision though and has continued to reassure me that He is working His plan as I chose to wait on His leading. I find it exciting to see God's work around me and within me, but at the same time, I am naturally concerned about all of the unknowns. Through these two years, God has continued to heal me. He has taught me so much about myself as well as the perspective He wants me to have about life. Who knows, after having surrendered my flight career plans, God may chose to then renew in me my own passion for flight. I would hope that some day I could use my private pilot certificate for fun and gain more experience in the northwest flying, but all in God's timing.

Today, God really met me where I was at and blessed me with more loving assurance that He hasn't forgotten me as I now feel that my goal at college has disappeared. On Thursday, I had prayed that He would give me some type of message in the morning when I woke up. So on Friday, the first thought that ran through my head was, "I'm going to give you a new song in your heart, a new song in your heart." I was filled with hope and encouragement, believing then that God could help me go through the necessary steps to stop instrument flight. Despite the peace and the burden lifted, I have obviously had questions of now what? After holding firm to what I know God has been showing me, a song majorly stuck out to me from my itunes play list. Its by Brandon Heath and is called "Don't Get Comfortable." You can go to his website and listen to part of the song if you have not heard it before. The lyrics go like this though:

Comfortable

Don't get comfortable

I am gonna move this mountain

Then I am gonna move you in

Yesterday

This is not yesterday

You were standing on my shoulder

Now you're standing on the edge

You have been looking for a sign all this time

Chorus

I am gonna show you what I mean

I am gonna love like you've never seen

You are gonna live like you used to dream

THIS IS YOUR NEW SONG

So afraid

But you don't have to be afraid

Even if you make mistakes

You know that I'll remain

You been looking for a sign all this time

If you seek you find me every time

(Chorus)

Can you feel the call of love

Is it moving you

To be a child of God of love

Is it reaching you

Its everywhere the call of love

I just wanna show you what I mean

I just wanna love like you've never seen

Do you wanna live like you used to dream

THEN I GOT A NEW SONG FOR YOU

YOU'VE GOT A NEW SONG

These words definitely spoke to my heart. I would encourage you to actually hear them being sung. Please continue to pray for me as I seek God's plan. I desire my heart to stay focused on Him as well as completely surrendered to what He has in mind (even if that means changing my preferred time line :o) God is good! I'm excited that God is giving me another chance to enjoy this college experience and learn even more. Thanks for all of your support!!! Even though, I am thousands of miles away from some of you, it really helps.

Yes, my 20th birthday is on March 1st! I will be celebrating with my friends at the Winter Jam concert nearby - lots of Christian artists will be performing like Jeremy Camp, Newsong, Aaron Shust....I'm excited :o)